The car drove all the way to a remote small village. There were no high-rise buildings on both sides of the road, and the tallest building was five stories. The roadside was covered with green grass and occasionally unknown wild flowers. The atmosphere in the car was very low. Lin Shen’s mother held the urn tightly all the way. Lin Shen walked out of this village with great excitement, but she returned to this village quietly.
Ye Liangkai remembers that Lin Shen said that his father died when he went to the construction site before he was born because of the poor protection measures taken by the construction party. He was raised by his mother since he was a child, and he was a good baby in everyone’s eyes. Three good students desperately read and tried to change their fate by knowledge, but their fate has not changed yet. At the age of five, they set sail and left his favorite mother.
Ye Liangkai will recall the first time he met him. The big boy’s eyebrows looked very clever. His eyes were full of inferiority and self-confidence. He was shy at that time and would ask politely what he did. Ye Liangkai thought he was very stiff at that time and often praised him for making him confident. Lin Shen was not as bad as others. Maybe that’s how Lin Shen liked him.
He couldn’t believe that Lin Shen, who looked like a white rabbit, would make such a bold thing as escaping from marriage, and forced him to die. Maybe there is some value in a person’s life than when others are not.
Ye Liangkai thinks that he would be much better if he didn’t appear in the deep forest world. He will not commit suicide because of stress. He thinks that he forced him to get white powder and Ye Liangkai feels that he is too bastard.
Ye Liangkai had four mature men sitting in a chair with leg injuries. He walked through the rugged mountain road. This posture looked like a parade gentleman, but it didn’t look like a funeral.
Lin Ma Lu has always been very polite and asked him if he was thirsty, tired or tired. Ye Liangkai shook his head. It was very comfortable for him to sit in this chair, but Ye Liangkai never rested for a moment. She remembered that her mother was a professional cook, but when she was very moist, she would get together with a few good friends to play cards and go shopping. She looked six or seven years younger than her actual age. On the other hand, Lin Shen’s mother looked like a big sister a few years younger than her mother.
When Lin Shen’s mother held his hand, he felt that it was rough, a little rougher than the roughest stone. Isn’t a woman born to be loved by men?
Lin Shen’s funeral was very lively, but it was very lonely, beating gongs and drums and suona erhu all the way. My ears were not quiet, and I sprinkled paper money, firecrackers and fireworks as I walked. I played several times. Lin Shen’s relatives cried and kept watching carefully, but there was not a drop of tears in their eyes, but I heard them shout dumb.
Ye Liangkai prefers a quiet funeral because it is more solemn. Like this, it is possible to invite people around you to eat, drink and ostentation for seven days, but many poor people can’t afford to die and hate it. This annoying custom forces everyone to continue.
Lin Shen’s urn is placed on the right side of Lin Shen’s father. This position should be Lin Ma, but if the new grave comes, let Lin Shen live in it.
After Ye Liangkai came back, he stayed in the forest deep house and didn’t go out for a big table meal. Because there were two houses in the forest deep house, Ye Liangkai lived in the forest deep house. The wall of the forest deep house was very tidy and covered with various awards, some of which said "excellent class cadres", some said "three good students", "helping others" and "moral model", and so on. It was really an outstanding young man who developed in all aspects of communism.
Ye Liangkai feels that he is a good boy, and Lin Shen is not the same. Well-known people say that Ye Liangkai looks like a little sheep, but he is actually a wolf. Lin Shen is really good from the inside out.
Ye Liangkai stopped at the table and opened a black notebook. Lin Ma came in with a bowl full of rice and piled high dishes on the hill and asked kindly, "Are you tired?"
Ye Liangkai nodded slightly. Lin Ma put the bowl on the table and said with a smile, "Our family is poor. I hope you don’t dislike it." Ye Liangkai smiled and relieved, "Aunt, I didn’t dislike it at all. I quite like it here. It looks very quiet and it’s very angry here."
Lin Ma smiled, and the crow’s feet piled up deeply together, and her eyes flashed with reminiscence. She said, "Before Shen Er, I often told me that I met someone very nice while filming. My husband said that he liked you very much. I wanted him to bring you homemade pickles several times, so he stopped me." Ye Liangkai never knew what was behind these things. Now I hear that my heart is a little complicated.
Lin Ma caught a glimpse of the black desk and said with a smile, "This is a diary written before Shen Er. I can’t read and I don’t know what I wrote."
Chapter one hundred and thirteen Diary
Ye Liangkai smell speech and look at the black note. This is Lin Shen’s diary.
Lin Ma looked at the black notebook, her eyes were gentle and vicissitudes, and her eyes flashed with reminiscence. She slowly said, "When I was a child, Qianshen used to lie on this table and write one stroke at a time. The teacher often praised his beautiful handwriting and posted his words on the wall as a model for the students in the class to learn from him."
Lin Shen has always been Lin Ma’s pride. Although their family is poor, others often envy themselves for having a good study, good looks and sensible son. Now they have supported themselves for so many years and are proud. Without Lin Ma, they feel uncomfortable and want to go with them.
Ye Liangkai saw that Lin Ma’s face was very sad and silent, and he began to wipe his tears silently and put his hand around her waist to comfort her, saying, "Aunt, don’t be sad. If Lin Shen is gone, you can treat me as your son." Ye Liangkai said this sentence from the heart, and there are also poor ingredients and guilty ingredients
When Lin Ma heard this sentence, she was inevitably moved, holding Ye Liangkai’s shoulder and gently touching his head and crying, "Thank you. I hope you can come and see Shen Er sometime later."
Ye Liangkai shook his head and said, "Aunt Lin Shen and I are good friends. Let me take care of you when he is gone." My mother who just lost her mother will be moved to hear this sentence.
At this moment, someone shouted at the door, "Mei Jun, are you ready? It’s too busy outside."
Lin Ma heard the release of Ye Liangkai and quickly wiped her face and tears. She smiled and said to him, "You are quick to eat. I went outside to help." Ye Liangkai nodded and said intimately, "Don’t be tired."
Lin Ma almost burst into tears when she heard this sentence. She nodded and left the room in a hurry. Ye Liangkai hated that her foot was hurt and she couldn’t help Lin Ma.
The room was very quiet. When the leaves were cool, the bowl was full of rice and took a bite with chopsticks. The entrance was fragrant with rice and wood. The rice was put into a wooden bucket and then steamed with firewood. It was full of natural flavor and then picked up in another bowl. All kinds of dishes tasted good, although they were not beautifully cooked, but the taste was simple.
Ye Liangkai opened the black notebook, and the paper in it was slightly yellowed. The ballpoint pen was very handsome and correct. Every word in the whole article was written seriously and beautifully. Ye Liangkai also wrote a diary before he insisted on not coming, but he gave up writing. It was often beautiful at the beginning, and it became more and more careless at the back, so that others might not recognize it.
The first article is dated September 1, 5 years. According to the calculation, Lin Shen was only 15 years old at that time, because he should be in the third grade.
Lin Shen wrote that today is the first day of school registration, and my mother passed quickly. I studied in the original two jobs and took a part-time job. Looking at my mother’s tired figure, I felt very bad. I couldn’t wait to give up my studies and go to work outside, but my mother didn’t allow me.
Every time my relatives see me, they say, "Your mother, it’s too difficult for you to study. You must make a lot of money to repay your mother." Sometimes they will charge me one or two hundred dollars to buy learning tools. In fact, they want to help our mother not to take their money. Every time I know that I have taken it, I must give it back to others. In fact, my heart is hoping that she will accept it once or twice occasionally. It is too difficult for her to make money.
Last semester, I won the first school scholarship in my class. Not surprisingly, my mother knew that she was very happy. Whenever this time, she was the happiest. She always said to me, "You just have to study hard. You don’t worry that if you don’t have money, your mother will earn you flowers outside. Just raise me when you are old."
Mom always won’t let me dress worse than others. She means that I have grown up and can’t wear clothes that don’t fit my relatives as I did when I was a child, and the town children are all beautifully dressed. Although my family doesn’t have the role of father, my mother has merged the characteristics of fatherhood. Looking at other people’s children and having a father to pick me up, my heart always thinks about how good it would be if my father were alive.
My father can see from a color photo that he is handsome and his eyebrows are very brave. My mother often says that my eyebrows are very similar to my father’s eyes, so I raise bangs to cover them up.
Ye Liangkai felt a little heavy in his heart and remembered Lin Shen’s confession to him. "Because I can’t live up to my mother’s training these years, I live very depressed and unhappy. I feel that I am my mother alive until you appear, which brings me a little light and passion. I can’t live without you. If I lose you, it doesn’t make sense for me to live."
Before Ye Liang opened, he thought about how Lin Shen could kill himself with a mere love, but now he is only white. Love really makes people want to die. He couldn’t wait to accompany Shi Ying to lie down underground together, but he was worried too much that people couldn’t die. Romeo and Juliet’s story looked sad and heroic, but it was too sexual. Lin Shen chose to commit suicide because he was too tired to live. He was really an irresponsible person and kept saying that he would be responsible for his mother.
However, what made him doubt this idea was to read the letter from Lin Ma.
This piece of paper looks a little wrinkled, with some scribbled words from the beginning, but it’s easy to recognize that the pen is very light and Lin Shen’s writing strength is very strong. In his notes, the back of the paper often stands out, and a person’s writing habits will not change too much, but this situation may be written after the drug effect is released after swallowing sleeping pills.
My only wish is to beg you to take care of my mother. Her lumbar spine is not very good and her eyes are spent. My knees hurt when it rains. These are all young people who are too tired to work. I am afraid that no one will wake her up after I leave. Please supervise her to take medicine.
This sentence makes Ye Liangkai more convinced that Lin Shen wrote after taking sleeping pills, but in general, suicide people don’t write the legacy first, and Lin Shen doesn’t look like a person with a lack of brain consideration. Ye Liangkai temporarily continued to look at Nai’s doubts.
I have three bank cards. The password of the first China bank card is if my mother forgets, please tell her that I have taken out two insurances. They are.
In this passage, Lin Shen confessed his storage and Lin Ma took out two long-term insurances. It seems that Lin Shen believed that he told himself these passwords.
I regret and blame myself for what I did to you, but I don’t have a chance to atone for you. I hope that after we met, we can let bygones be bygones and take care of my mother. Please, if there is an afterlife, I will definitely make you an ox and a horse to pay for this guilt. And don’t go astray again. I’m really worried. I really want to supervise you, but there is no chance. You must get up and look at you. I feel very distressed.
Ye Liangkai thought for a moment that Lin Shen did something wrong. Liu Yin should mean to get involved in his marriage with Liu Shiying, but it’s a bit too serious to be a cow and a horse. Think of yourself bullying Lin Shen to find white powder. This business is really bad. It seems that you are so depressed that everyone is worried.
In the last paragraph, it says, I can’t bear to part with you, but my mother’s line is I love you, and your word is still missing half of the radical.